Gnat Mind

I wonder if I like to stretch the future into forever, or at least into “not yet”,

so that I can delay decisions whose outcomes disappoint,

or requires me to meet further great expectations.

By the time the consequences unfold,

I’m done with the intention and no longer give a damn.

Because difficult is instinct, simple is a challenge for me.

Some moments I can ride the wave of an experience.

Breath in…breath out… Namaste and shit.

Mostly though, I dig holes. I plug holes with the dirt of one into another,

or forget to fill others entirely, and fall, deep and whole.